I'm back to update! I haven't forgotten about this site. I just didn't want to keep writing the same things over and over again so I just left it until I felt it was time for an update.

This past Saturday marked us being together for nine months. We are doing fine and I have grown to love him dearly. We haven't said "I love you" to each other yet because it's something I think we're waiting until we meet in person. He's been busy with his daughters and work duties (volleyball season and teaching) and I've been busy with school (classes are kicking my butt). We talk everyday and sometimes every other day on weekends.

In January, he turned 39 years old and I will be turning 27 in April. We are not young anymore!! Haha...

Oh, and I still get weird looks when I explain to people about the dynamics of my relationship. They want to warn me of the dangers of internet dating and the risks involved in believing someone you've never met... as if I didn't think about those risks when this all started. Gotta love your friends though... for caring enough about you to make sure you got your ground covered.

I hope that we can work something out so we can see each other in the summer or something. There's a good chance I'll be moving to Auburn University to finish nursing school if I don't get into my first choice. It would be nice if we could work it out so he could visit me when I'm not living with my family. I love my family but sometimes all those people make it so much harder to just be yourself with the boyfriend. You want to please your family and please your man... just a lot of things at once. I think being alone together is long overdue.

Hope everyone is doing well and just wanted to drop in to say hi. :)

So, it's been a month since I last updated. It's not that I forgot about my updates, it's because nothing big or news-worthy has happened since. There were a few little bits of news that has happened in the last few weeks so I guess it was time for an update now.

I had my first phonesex with the boyfriend. I figured that the least I could do was to offer some release even though I couldn't be there with him. It was good. I can say that even though it was over the phone, something clicked. It's kind of embarassing to say to my friends in public but in today's society, it's not bad is it?

The boyfriend's youngest daughter had a seizure the other week. It did quite a number on him mentally and physically. The daughter is fine and the boyfriend is doing better. However, he now has a really bad virus and he's been going through it for the past week. He even missed a couple of days from work.

A few more friends have found out my relationship status. As they find out more information about the boyfriend, I get the same repetitive questions such as 1.) Are you ready to be a step-mother? 2.) Are you okay that he's 38 and divorced with kids? 3.) Are you okay with the cultural differences?

These questions actually don't scare me at all. I'm not phased by these questions. You would think that if these really were issues I thought would be problems for me, I would have freaked out already. In fact, the questions are more assuring that I do want this if this is how it's supposed to be. I'm not scared. Bring it.

This weekend, I've gotten sick. I don't think I have it as bad as my boyfriend does, but I have a cold or something. I've got fever and a headache. All I've been wanting is to cuddle with my man and soothe his aching muscles and to mother him back to health... then in return, he could cuddle with me in bed to try and soothe my sickness. Would you believe I slept 20 hours in the past 24 hours? Yeah, I was that tired.